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…to infinity and beyond! | 1

Goal: daily blog posts for all of August incorporating the number 8 within the topic of each post. my youngest daughter turns 8 this month and it is the 8th month so I’m rolling with it.

my errantmuse’s prompt: If you had the number 8 (or the infinity symbol) tattooed somewhere, where would you get it and why? was too perfect to pass up.

The e in Love needs some love, eh?

As soon as I decided on 8 being the theme for my posts I started brainstorming ideas incorporating the infinity symbol. That is also why I am using the number 8 rather than spelling out the word as I usually would so that I show the correlation visually with it’s sideways counterpart. Infinity and unconditional are two very meaningful and powerful words that express how intense and unbreakable the bond between Hope, Riley and me is. When I sign off of letters and phone calls I tell them I love them to the moon and back times infinity, its been our thing since Riley was a toddler and they know that means never ending and limitless and unconditional so they can count on it always being. It has made all the difference in going through so much separation and turmoil these past few years, Hope really hangs on it as her safety net in the negative and unloving living situation she’s having to endure. I make sure to show my girls as much love and affection as I can whenever I can so it can keep them comforted until we are together again.

I got my tattoo for all the wrong reasons but for those reasons and its meaning to me as a reminder to never stop experiencing life with an open heart and positive mind I cherish it. When I first got the tattoo it was the infinity symbol unshaded with my now ex-husband’s name inked across what is now filled in. I wanted to show him that I was devoted to only him for life in an irreversible forever kind of way. I know, everyone said not to but I was determined that this would make our relationship stronger and more trusting. Yeah it didn’t. I would still have his name there but for the guy I dated after we separated being loudly offended at having to see it regularly leading my dad to feel sorry for me and not wanting that to be an issue in every future relationship took me in for a cover up. Unintentionally I booked the same artist who had been one of the husband-name naysayers and he got a real kick out of it.

Live Laugh Love was really popular and overused but it was my mantra and I felt I made it my own adding Learn because that aspect makes the others possible.

I was right in my belief that Riley’s dad and my love was infinite – we share our love for Riley and are tied together for life with that. Plus we still have a bond and love and respect for one another that amazes me through everything, we’re family.