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eight 8-word quotes to live by | 2

“I walk slowly, but I never walk backward.”
Abraham Lincoln

“Half a truth is often a great lie.”
Benjamin Franklin

“A person’s
a person
no matter
how small.”
Dr. Suess

“Wherever you go, go with all your heart.”

“Our life is what our thoughts make it.”
Marcus Aurelius

“Work is a necessary evil to be avoided.”
Mark Twain

“Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.”
Stephen Hawking

a witty fool
than a
foolish wit.”
William Shakespeare

My takeaways:
Letting go of the past gave me life.
You can’t rearrange the truth and be honest.
Children need us to show them they matter.
Live life with your soul on your sleeve.
Our thinking shapes what our actions create, life.
You only need so much, take it easy.
Only through exploring the unknown can you grow.
Be your silliest self and know your shit.
-lackadaisical whimsy

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…to infinity and beyond! | 1

Goal: daily blog posts for all of August incorporating the number 8 within the topic of each post. my youngest daughter turns 8 this month and it is the 8th month so I’m rolling with it.

my errantmuse’s prompt: If you had the number 8 (or the infinity symbol) tattooed somewhere, where would you get it and why? was too perfect to pass up.

The e in Love needs some love, eh?

As soon as I decided on 8 being the theme for my posts I started brainstorming ideas incorporating the infinity symbol. That is also why I am using the number 8 rather than spelling out the word as I usually would so that I show the correlation visually with it’s sideways counterpart. Infinity and unconditional are two very meaningful and powerful words that express how intense and unbreakable the bond between Hope, Riley and me is. When I sign off of letters and phone calls I tell them I love them to the moon and back times infinity, its been our thing since Riley was a toddler and they know that means never ending and limitless and unconditional so they can count on it always being. It has made all the difference in going through so much separation and turmoil these past few years, Hope really hangs on it as her safety net in the negative and unloving living situation she’s having to endure. I make sure to show my girls as much love and affection as I can whenever I can so it can keep them comforted until we are together again.

I got my tattoo for all the wrong reasons but for those reasons and its meaning to me as a reminder to never stop experiencing life with an open heart and positive mind I cherish it. When I first got the tattoo it was the infinity symbol unshaded with my now ex-husband’s name inked across what is now filled in. I wanted to show him that I was devoted to only him for life in an irreversible forever kind of way. I know, everyone said not to but I was determined that this would make our relationship stronger and more trusting. Yeah it didn’t. I would still have his name there but for the guy I dated after we separated being loudly offended at having to see it regularly leading my dad to feel sorry for me and not wanting that to be an issue in every future relationship took me in for a cover up. Unintentionally I booked the same artist who had been one of the husband-name naysayers and he got a real kick out of it.

Live Laugh Love was really popular and overused but it was my mantra and I felt I made it my own adding Learn because that aspect makes the others possible.

I was right in my belief that Riley’s dad and my love was infinite – we share our love for Riley and are tied together for life with that. Plus we still have a bond and love and respect for one another that amazes me through everything, we’re family.

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31 bLog posts

So hi!
I’m starting to utilize this blog – | Indubitably Inane – as my club house where anything I think up must get jot down. I need the chaos to balance out the structure and serenity that sobriety and a healthy mindset have brought to my main site | clean.dopefiend. Separate space keeps me from feeling cluttered as well. Plus, I have my story I want to tell and it is all swirling mockingly around my head and refusing to translate into writing. I’m hoping once I get this first “chapter” going I won’t run in to this again but that is also where comes in. I’m setting myself the goal of writing one blog post for each day in August and along the way I’m hoping a portion of my story will shake loose and I’ll get past this overthinking block I’ve got up.
So that I have some extra help keeping myself to a blog post a day I’m going to have a theme or commonality for all 31 blog posts. Because it is the eighth month and my daughter is turning 8 this month as well each post will incorporate the number 8 and I’ll try not to get too lazy and just start making lists of 8 this or 8 that!! Haha.
This was a painful post to write but I wanted to get it written down so I do it!!